I think about contacting the WIL every single day. And I could do it. I want to do it. The thing is I don’t want to hide my love for her or sneak around. If I sneak to contact her that gives other people power. I am not sneaking around to see her ever again. I want her completely or not at all. She has chosen to be with another person and o respect that. She has to do what she has to do for her kids and family. I have to be patient, have faith and take risk. I would rather luv with hope of being with her in any way that do anything else.
There are three ways I think she feels. Mad sad and indifferent. If she is mad at me I can accept that. If she is sad like I am I can wait for ever. Her being indifferent scares me. Terrorizes me.
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