Known

I am writing this blog and making the posts public for anyone to see. I am not advertising it or promoting it but I am not hiding it.

Yesterday someone liked one of my blogposts. I wasn’t sure what to feel.

I am sharing what I consider my deepest feelings. I am sharing the dark part of me. At least dark like the dark side of the moon. The part no one ever sees.

On one hand want to be exposed and not hide anything. On the other I will feel uncomfortable with people knowing the things I never share with them.

On one hand I don’t want to alienate those that know the contrived me. On the other hand, by being honest I could meet more people that relate to me.

I really struggle not to use the words embarrassed and ashamed to describe the things I want to hide or not admit.

By assigning those words to my experience I categorize people that live a certain way and never tried to hide it as bad. If there is any guilt shame or embarrassment to be had it is because from my narrow standpoint I chose to view them that way. They are not empirically true labels.