Like a football player that became permanently and severely disabled physically I became disabled emotionally.
The inability to commit to a job, to be invested in a relationship all stem from my experience over a decade ago. I always believed I would be “cured.” That it would resolve.
I don’t believe that any more. I must come to acceptance.
The events of last year are not the catalyst. I would be disabled even if the WIL and I were able to connect. I changed as a result of the experience of being the chaplain, of loving so deeply. The events of the nine plus jobs and meandering career path are results.
I am not complaining. I lived a great life and regret nothing.
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