I woke up from a nap and saw the afternoon light filtered through high clouds. The view was peaceful. When I was younger I would have looked at it and plotted how I could possess it forever.
Now I know it is a moment that is given to me. A moment that will exist, fade, and reappear. Or perhaps slip away forever. There is no way I can possess.
I have lived a life better than I could imagine. Being a hospice chaplain captured the feeling of having a job I loved and excelled at.
I got to fall in love with the woman I consider beyond perfect. I knew what it was like to have that feeling reciprocated. I saw the birth of my children. I enjoyed the mountains of utah and the ocean in California.
I can’t possess these things. I can’t horde them and make them solely mine. I am just thankful I had my turn to experience them.
As I have grown older my energy is on duty. Duty to be a good son. To be available for my mom.
To be a good father and support my daughter.
Those are the things I do now. They are not as adventurous. But they are important and what I am called to do
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