I am a little concerned how quickly my mood changes. I can be fine one minute then feel hopeless the next. I have panic attacks at night. This past month has been exhausting. My thoughts are fragmented. Why wouldn’t they be? Maybe I am just dealing with a lot of shit…
I broke bad with the layoff from this past job. I am resilient. I don’t spook easily or become hopeless. I believe there always is an out. Things were extremely tight inthe fall. The job was salvation. To have it disappear so abruptly was harsh.
I want to move and grow. But there is an undercurrent of resentment that I have to. Residual of nine years of hanging tight in adversity…
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