Valencia

Before my wife and I moved to utah we lived in Valencia California for a year. I drove up here to go on the walk I did every morning with my dog. As I was driving I was reminded how much I fucking loved this place. How magical it felt to live in the Los Angeles area. How I loved coming back to visit family when we moved to utah. to see the area again and go for the walk. Even living in Orange County we would come visit and I would make it a point to go for the walk along the trail that was behind our apartment.

I love Dana point. But it was where I was to be at that time. Just like I loved Valencia. And centerville. I am excited to discover a new place in Phoenix. Hold new memories.

Home is where I make it. Phoenix will be just as strong a home to my daughter as Orange County because I will always provide a safe place from the world for her just as my dad did for me. She will build ties and memories just as I did in all the places I lived. She will be alright and so will I.

Driving through Los Angeles county I realize how stressed I have been. I designed a game of stress. That living out here is so valuable. And everyone was trying to take it away. I was always fighting to hold on. Realizing I can quit the game and move on is a huge relief.

I am looking forward to finding a nice place to live. One thing about where we are now is the apartments have been old and shitty. Shorty plumbing, dated fixtures. The price premium is for location. Not amenities.

I was also thinking about my wife looking at jobs I could apply for in Orange County. I am emotionally invested in Phoenix now. I don’t think I would take a job in Orange County. It is time to move on.