A little kernel of doubt slipped in my mind. It is growing out of control. Is the inability to keep a job because I am not good at sales? Is it the viewpoint in Southern California? Or is it something else?
I started having this problem when I became a parent. I am terrified I will move and it will be no different. My confidence is so low. I have ptsd from jobs going south. I watch shows and if a boss gets upset I feel my stomach tighten.
The trauma goes back further than Southern California. It first happened in utah. The new manager at the hospice where I worked as a Chaplain tried to run me off. Fuck. I am broken
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