My mind is so screwed up. I apologize to my dad. I used to bag on him for things he failed to do. I gave my brother a hard time for what he was not. I am the worst of all us.
The terrible thing is I have a new job I am starting. I am the fucking director of the program. I am the leader, the boss. And I feel like ignorant shit.
I have a good job starting, with a good company. And all I can think about is how I will fuck it up. I seriously want to cry. I am on the verge of a new opportunity and all I see are the million ways I will fail. embarrass myself. Disappoint my daughter. Break my moms heart. Reinforce my wife’s belief I am a fuck up. Justify the WIL‘s jettisoning me.
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