9:47am California did not go as planned. I thought after almost ten years here I would have amassed wealth, increased salary, owned a house in Dana Point and would be at the height of my career.
Instead I am moving out of state, have less retirement, less savings, more debt. I make less money than the salary I had when I moved here.
The only thing I can say about California is I tried. I played it until I was absolutely broke. Mentally emotionally and financially. Life is funny. Failure never dawned on me. Diminishing in any way wasn’t on the radar. Not growing as fast or as high might have sounded feasible. But not ruination. I was exposed. I am a bust. At least I tried. I took a chance. I took a risk. I had an adventure. Now the best I can do is eat shit in Arizona and try to piece together a somewhat tolerable stable existence. Damn, I really wish the redemption part of the story would begin. Nine years of scrambling and falling behind has blown. Arizona is an adventure and I have a good job waiting. I just need to change my perspective
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