Arizona

12pm noon. Sitting in my car in front of the office. My new boss sent me a welcome arrangement of fruit. I told her it was extr special because it is my birthday.

I cannot get over how my energy flows so much better here. I am tempted to try and analyze my failure. Figure out a way to have this in California. I must release that time in my life. I appreciate it and celebrate the positive memories but I am a better person here. And healthier.

I went to starvixks and got my free sandwich. Then I went to Panera. They had a few pastry and a free cookie for me! Drive out to time my drive to the new office. It is about 15. Might be more with commute time.

I feel like the old me. The Utah me. The best version of me. The one I kept trying to recapture since I have been in California. I have to realize how much of a blessing and gift Arizona is. How much I appreciate the new job. And a boss I really feel I connect with. I want to help her be successful. I want to be successful for my team and my family.

I read a story by Will Leitch. I subscribe to his newsletter. How he talks about matoon Illinois reminds me of my hometown Evanston wyoming. A lot of similar energy and I feel we have some common world views. He was describing his experience with lockdown last year. As I read the information I started to cry. I wasn’t in a great place before lockdown. And lockdown just ratcheted up the bad mental tendencies I have. Arizona feels like a new beginning. Old habits and a bad year are wiped clean. I can have fresh experiences. I am reborn