These posts have narrowed down to two people who the audience is. My wife and the WIL. Those are the two main people I imagine reading them and judging me. To my wife I feel like a disappointment. That she has put up with me. To the WIL, she has my heart and soul. She is married. But she comes from a culture of polygamy. Horny gross men that had 50+ wives and used religion to molest children. The WIL has two husbands. The man she is married to and me. I am abstinent and will remain so for her. What is good enough for fuck face men is good enough for my amazing goddess. She is the most powerful confident woman I have ever seen and I love her with all that I am.
To my wife. Coming to Arizona has made me appreciate that you have stuck with me in some capacity. I let you down. But I appreciate the gifts you have and brought to my life. I don’t know what tomorrow will be like or if either of you still need me. Want anything to do with me. I take for granted your talents and your strengths. You have always been there for me. Supporting me. No matter how crazy my idea or action you stuck with me. You deserved a husband that honored you completely. I wish I could have been that for you.
My existence is defined by the women in my life. My wife. My daughter. My mom. The WIL.
I want to say a word about my mom. She is a strong independent woman. She has always been involved in politics. She was the Democratic Party chair as the wife of the Missouri synod Lutheran minister in rural gerauld county South Dakota. My early memories weee being five years old and throwing peanuts off a parade float for Jimmy carter. She was the chair for the party in Pennington county. The second largest county in the state. She was on the ticket as the Secretary of State cadidtate. 1980. That loss had her out of politics for a while. She got back in for her late 50’sin wyoming. She served in the house and was the minority floor leader. She served inthe senate. She served on the governors community college board. She was on the city council. My mom is a bad ass. I miss her and appreciate she lives with me the last theee months.
Anyway, I wanted to make record of my thoughts. No one is going to be pleased or impressed with this narrative. But that is how my life is viewed.
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