11:48pm What is real? What is true? Is there a direct causal relationship between feelings and experience? Am I a victim or is my perception flawed? Do I put myself in situations where I set myself up for failure? If I am given the opportunity do I take it?
Objectively part of my problem are results. I take jobs that are results oriented. Sales, operations. They are also jobs that require a skill set that fall under “office politics.” the ability to maneuver around situations where your value is questioned. Even challenges. Regardless of results. In my first and last job in California both organizations were at all time highs for census and revenue. The first I was the director of sales. The last the executive director. Results were not the problem. My value to the organization, my contribution, were challenged. I failed to position myself as integral.
This job will be a results position. The program is not in good shape. There is not a clear direction from lack of consistent leadership. There are financial issues. Whether the program thrives, gets turned around, will reflect on my ability and worth to the company.
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