6:23am Tuesday morning. Finished walk and workout. Unloaded some boxes from the car. Still haven’t quite finished unpacking the trunk.
My energy drops into vulnerable child like mode while I sleep. I wake up around two am feeling small and scared. Wanting to avoid any work or stress. I calm myself and fall back asleep until five then get up and go my routine. All the while I am walking my mind wants to go down well worn neuro paths about larger purpose and the meaning of life. I want to solve existence. I catch myself doing that and can neutralize the thoughts so I don’t get frustrated. The cleaver helps me focus on the day. The task at hand. Be in work mode. I win. I am strong. I have outside. I am confident. Decisive determined.
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