7:35pm getting ready to read and go to bed. I don’t like to dwell on negative thoughts. Say this and release it. I struggled to succeed as a dad and an employee. I tried to grow and become better. Maybe o would have failed anyway. Sales and management were never really my strengths. But I didn’t seem to have the ability to commit at work when I was a dad to a young girl. I say that because one of my employees as two daughters. 2 and 6. We went to a community together and talked. We talked about the struggle to be a parent of young kids and to have the stamina/ desire to succeed at work. Even now I can give fully at work because I can come home. Eat. Watch what I want. Then call my mom and daughter. I can wait until I choose to interact then only for a compartmented time. I would feel guilty if I hadn’t had 14 goddamn fucking jobs in the 12 years she has been alive.
I have to work. I can’t be a deadbeat. I just don’t want to let my daughter down. But the instability already has. I already failed
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