6:28am The thought that gives me the most peace right now is the lease being up in March of next year. A year from tomorrow. If I cleave off the past, block everything else out, that calms my mind. Otherwise my mind spirals to thoughts of failure, shortcomings and even suicide.
If I can be objective my failures stem from doing sales and not being good at sales. I keep waiting for the day I look back on the last nine years and laugh. Maybe even appreciate how crazy it has been. I just don’t like the instability hurting my daughter. Everyone wants to do high risk, high reward unless it is high risk and high probability of failure. I have crashed and burned as a salesperson. Yesterday I overheard my business office manager talking about his sales career with one of our chaplains. He mentioned winning a recognition while still being under fire because his numbers weren’t good for the month. That you are only as good as your last referral/sale. The business office manager has a similar background as me. He is a nice guy. Not necessarily a high pressure sales person. He got out of sales for the same reasons as I did. Sales is a young persons game. It is not for the feint of heart.
I marvel at the people who can stay in the sales and marketing. Deflect the pressure and the blame. Stay in the role. The upper management, senior leaders. If you can hold on to your sales related job for a couple years that is the sign of a true sales person!
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