I am physically and mentally drained by the first three months of 2021. I am thinking about flying to Orange County and bringing my car back. That way I don’t have to drive the truck back and forth again. I got it smog tested and registered last week. Today I am having it serviced. But it is a old truck.
This weekend is the last trip of the move. I am worried. Though I am exhausted I have been engaged in activity. That has kept me from overthinking. Which causes anxiety and drinking. This time next week will be a new reality. I am no longer half in Dana point half in Arizona. I am conflicted. My wife and daughter live there. I don’t have bad feelings. But I don’t believe there is really anything to go back to. I keep focusing on building a safe space in Arizona for everyone. For my mom, my daughter, my wife. Friends and extended family. I need to stay focused on the goal of buying a house and creating security.
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