6:38am the morning sun is beautiful. My apartment looks nice. It has a good energy. This morning I woke up feeling multiple things. I am sad Dana Point is over. I am glad it is over. I feel like a failure. I feel like I have a new beginning. I needed fresh perspective. I worry how being in Arizona will affect my daughter. Either because she stays in California or moves to Arizona. Change was necessary. Inevitable. I don’t know what this change will entail.
It is weird to be nostalgic and conflicted. I was literally being ruined mentally and financially in that place. But despite the necessity. Despite the reasons why. I still left my home
Despite all the bad things there was still beauty there. There was goodness. Memories. I will never completely reconcile with the leaving. Beautiful things were lost I will never have again. I felt the same way leaving utah.
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