5:53am This morning about two thirds of the way through my walk I thought about the WIL. More specifically, feeling dumped by her. My insides instantly soaked in toxic chemical energy. I started to panic. I had obsessed over this thought many times. It is destructive. paralyzing. Evil. I blocked the thought. I refused to hurt myself. I am in control of the narrative. I will not burn my soul with negative thoughts. I finished my walk. On the way back to my apartment I stopped by the gym at the complex. By the time I began working out I felt better. Taking control of my thoughts, avoiding a direct onslaught of torture minimized the damage. Still, the initial release of neural energy remained. Every song seeped sadness through my guts. It has been so long since I have seen her. Talked to her. Touched her. Yet she dominates every thought i have.
The WIL
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