One year ago

5:37am one year ago was my one year work anniversary at the job before last. I had not had a “work anniversary” in four years at that point. The jobs before that lasted 11 months, 3 months, four months and eight months. With a six and two month period of unemployment in there as well. The work anniversary was meaningful. I had some stability. The job didn’t pay enough to cover my bills but that didn’t matter. I needed peace of mind. Since that work anniversary last year I left my job, my wife and daughter moved out (on the same day as my last day of work) I started a new job. my mom had a major accident and came to live with me. I lost my new job. I moved out of state and started another new job. Lock down has become less strict. I still have talked to the WIL or know anything about how she is doing. I have become numb. I don’t remember what it was like to feel joy. Or sadness.