2:27pm at work. I have had such a shitty last ten years. I don’t know how to stay at a job. How to be loyal. How to accept loyalty

9:18am made it to work today. Slept in this morning. Feeling nostalgic. First day of summer vacation for my daughter. She is in sailing camp.

5:03pm Sunday’s are easier when I don’t try to solve Monday. I can’t avoid the pain of transition. why try?

9:53am packing up to leave Dana Point. Heading out to Arizona. The life I am meant to live right now.

I wasted so much energy trying to be something I was not. I was always scheming to “improve” I am just me the rest of the way in

4:40pm at the mall. The girls are shopping. I came to the food court to grab something to eat. Wait. The mall is less stressful to let them walk around on their own.

2:27pm Dana Point, not as much need to reset thinking on weekends. Happy and content. Watching a movie with my daughter

9:57am Saturday. Usual palm desert morning check in. Not a bad drive. Got a later start. Already getting hot.

5:01pm my self worth is tied to referrals and admissions. If we do not have new business coming in I feel rejected

9:13am on a sales call. would I be willing to make the sacrifice to be successful? I want to be successful but I don’t want to sacrifice. I have tried for ten years. Even if the opportunity was presented I would hedge. Why keep trying if I don’t want to truly do it?