6:22am in the apartment on the couch watching the weather and sipping coffee. The last few days have exhausted me. I don’t have the energy to be in non stop crisis mode. My mind is racing. I am frightened. I have a tension headache that wraps from my eyes to the back of my head. The only thing that gives me solace is thinking about taking the day off from work. Not going in. Not worrying about every problem. Not caring for a moment. All week my wife daughter and her friend planned to go to an activity center. I was going to leave work at lunch and meet them in the afternoon but I am going to take the entire day off.