Month: October 2021

Jobs

2:01pm. There are two jobs in San Diego county I could apply for. There was one in Orange County I did apply for but didn’t give much effort to get. What I am saying is there are opportunities to return to Southern California. Yet I am hesitant. I miss my daughter and I want to be close to her. But there are bad memories. Was I really happy there? Was I in a good place? last I remember I was tens of thousands of dollars in debt and just laid off from a my ninth job in nine years- a job I had all of three months. Forgive me if I am not eager to jump back in.

Audience

9:16am Friday. There needs to be an audience or the best writing in the world doesn’t exist. For the past couple of months I have not put much effort into these posts because I was writing word documents. But they weren’t going anywhere because there is no interaction. I get no feedback. I am going to start putting my effort into the blog again. This is my only connective outlet to the world

Friday

6:42am Friday. My old boss reached out to me earlier this week. I haven’t seen her for years. Haven’t talked to her very much lately. She moved to Washington state. We got along well, even earned our mba’s together. She texted me and said she might be coming to Phoenix in December/January. It would be good to see her. I felt happy when I heard from her. I haven’t felt happiness for a while. I am tired of feeling mopey!

Jobs

6:14am Arizona, home. I realize I don’t like sales jobs. I don’t apply for them any more. I don’t like operations jobs either. Yet I am enticed by the money they pay and the challenge of getting a job. I need to be disciplined and have stability. Be a chaplain and find my thrills some other way than getting jobs I don’t like.

Two energies

8:17am Arizona, office. I have two energies, spiritual and monetary. Both are valid but spiritual is the dominant energy. For the past 12 years I have honored the less dominant energy, the monetary. I wanted to do it, to try something different, but I am tired. it is time to go back to spiritual. I found my hard copy of The Unaffiliated book I wrote nine years ago. I am going to go through it and see what I can do with it.

Halloween fun

11:23am Saturday. We walked in the door at 3am this morning. Last night was epic. First the party started at 6pm. With dinner, heavy traffic, finding a car space and meeting up with other guests we didn’t enter the park until 9pm. By then it was packed with people. Waits for rides topped two and a half hours. At midnight we walked one of the Halloween attractions. After that we were tired. It was a rush to get everyone home before falling asleep. My daughter is still asleep. I woke up to take the dog out and have been watching football.