Is success worth it?

May 2, 2023, Tuesday night, 6:09pm, pacific standard time, hotel in Palm Desert, California, USA. Felt stressed today. I know why. I committed to measurable business success a month and a half ago. That is a new frame of mind that has led to dangerous consequences. Case in point: we had a referral come in this afternoon. The old me would have postponed it. There were questions about authorization much more easily solved tomorrow morning. I could have noted the obstacles, accepted my limitations and explained the situation to my supervisor. No one would have cared and I could have had a quiet rest of my day. Instead, I worked for hours, with multiple people, to complete the admission tonight. The result is I achieved my stated goal, i.e. census and revenue growth. But, the effort caused physical pain in my upper stomach that leaves me hurting and anxious. Frankly, I am scared I won’t ever find a way to relax again. Is so called “success”’really worth destroying my body for?