Halfway through

July 25, 2024, Sunday afternoon, 4:03pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. There are certain things I like about my job; my car, the company credit card, my paycheck, a sense of identity, doing something I am good at, etc. and there are certain things I don’t like; every work day is full, there are no skate days. Weekends are busy, my phone is constantly going off with calls, texts and emails. These two favors create constant tension. I am officially halfway through the time of my daughter started high school and when she will finish. That is the minimum period of time I said I wanted to stay. The part of me that like the job is good with that. The part of me that doesn’t like the job questions if I can even make it to September. There is always energy keeping me in and pulling me out. I guess eventually the tension will break one way or the other and I will leave. I doubt I have that much control over the timing. All I can do is stay in the game as long as possible and see when it all ends.