July 21, 2024, Sunday evening, 6:54pm, pacific standard time, Hampton Inn, Visalia, California,USA. This morning I went for the Blue Lantern walk then worked out at Planet Fitness. Afterwards I went home, showered, packed then Drove to Aliso Viejo to pick up my daughter for a Dunkin run. I got on the road to Visalia at 10:30am. First stop was to buy groceries in Valencia. Then I stopped in Bakersfield to use the bathroom before making it to Visalia at 4pm. I laid down for a bit then got out and drove around. Visalia is a cute little city. I will have to stay again and explore. It feels so good to experience something completely new without having to drastically change my life circumstance.

July 20, 2024, Saturday night, 9:05pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Went out last night and didn’t get back until after midnight. Got up at 4:30am and drove to Valencia/Lompoc to help my daughter’s grandma pack for her move to an assisted living next week. I had dinner with my daughter’s mom’s family at Blaze pizza in Lompoc then drove the moving truck back with my daughter’s uncle. When I finally got back to Orange County i stopped in Aliso viejo and say hi my daughter real quick. As a result, I didn’t get home until almost nine. I just finished dinner of Amy’s frozen Mac and cheese and now am watching family feud.

July 19, 2024, Friday afternoon, 3:41pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California, USA. Had a negative experience at work today. On our group call at the very end I announced the San Diego branch was having a party to celebrate a census milestone. The Vice President of sales got inappropriately offended and brought the whole group down. She made me look small. Afterwards people were texting me asking if I was alright. It was embarrassing and frankly, unnecessary. The exchange cast a pall over the entire day. Oh well. I am finishing laundry then driving to Whittier to have a drink with a friend. I am planning on staying out there because Saturday I am driving to valencia and then Lompoc to help with my daughter’s grandma’s move. I will be practically half way to Valencia if I am Whittier so No need to drive back and forth to Dana point, especially since I am supposed to be there at 7am Saturday.

July 18,2024, Thursday night, 7:46pm, Pacific Standard Time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. Drove back from Victorville this morning. Took my daughter to a singing lesson and took meetings in the car this afternoon. I was so busy I ended up working at her mom’s house in Aliso Viejo until 5pm. They had leftover broccoli and Alfredo so I brought that home to eat with reheated BJ’s pizza from last night. My daughter’s mom is going out of town next week so I am going to travel early (Sunday) and stay in Visalia. I have performance evaluations due and I want to meet the directors in person. that means Monday staying in palm desert and coming home Tuesday night.

July 17, 2024, Wednesday night, 11:55pm, pacific standard time, Hilton garden inn, Victorville, California,USA. Got up around 3:39an and went to the gym, hung out in the morning then headed to the office. Had my executive coaching session then drove to target to buy snacks for the office. Spent the rest day working and attending virtual meetings. ordered BJ’s for dinner, pizza, chowder and wedge salad. Watched game shows then scrolled in my phone before lights out at 9pm.

July 16, 2024, Tuesday evening, 7:44, pacific standard time, Hilton Garden Inn, Victorville, California,USA. I ordered poke for dinner tonight. Probably not a good idea. The tuna smelled and tasted alright but definitely looked off. I am feeling gassy. Hopefully I don’t get sick. Work wise the day was fine. My supervisor was in town. We met in the morning and then he took off around 11:30am. I had the audit call at 1pm. It wasn’t great but I got through it. I have another call in two weeks and have a ton of work to prepare. I am not looking forward to it at all. The last couple days were about as much stress as I care to handle. On a personal note my daughter’s grandma is going home from rehab. Apparently she didn’t like the Skilled nursing facility. I don’t blame her. Most of them aren’t very nice. I am going to go up to Lompoc Saturday with my ex in laws to help move furniture. I guarantee now she isn’t going to like the Assisted Living either.

July 15, 2024, Monday night, 7:30pm, pacific standard time, Hilton garden inn , Victorville, California, USA. I am in the same room as last week. The same room I was in for my birthday. It is weird to come back to the same room two weeks in a row. A little too home like. Which at least I am not in Dana point. I have to admit, I really don’t like my apartment. Love the location, but hate the place. Can you tell I am in a grouchy mood? Tomorrow is a follow up call about the internal audit. I spent over 8 hours last week and this week catching up on audits. And still not close to being done. And literally, I am the only one stressed about it. The directors haven’t done anything. The ADCO hasn’t helped. Ultimately it falls on me so I guess i own the failure. I will eat the berating and keep plugging away. So stupid. So annoying. Also, my boss is coming to town to do my performance evaluation. Normally they would be my biggest stressor.

July 25, 2024, Sunday afternoon, 4:03pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. There are certain things I like about my job; my car, the company credit card, my paycheck, a sense of identity, doing something I am good at, etc. and there are certain things I don’t like; every work day is full, there are no skate days. Weekends are busy, my phone is constantly going off with calls, texts and emails. These two favors create constant tension. I am officially halfway through the time of my daughter started high school and when she will finish. That is the minimum period of time I said I wanted to stay. The part of me that like the job is good with that. The part of me that doesn’t like the job questions if I can even make it to September. There is always energy keeping me in and pulling me out. I guess eventually the tension will break one way or the other and I will leave. I doubt I have that much control over the timing. All I can do is stay in the game as long as possible and see when it all ends.

July 13, 2024, Saturday night, 11:11pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California,USA. Started the day with the Blue Lantern walk this morning before driving to the El Toro Planet Fitness for a workout. After coming home for a bit my daughter called so I drove to Aliso Viejo to see her. She was still in bed so I took the dog for a short walk then got gas for my work car, washed it, took it to jiffy lube for service and came back home to shower. I then went back to Aliso to take my daughter to Dunkin. This afternoon I stopped to get a haircut innLaguna Niguel. They were busy so I needed to come back 45 minutes later. To kill time I picked up the mail in Dana Point then returned at 2:45pm. After my haircut I visited Albertsons to get coffee pods, French bread pizza and gum. I came home, napped, did some chart audits for work and watched the new Beverly Hills Cop movie on Netflix before falling asleep.

July 11,12, 2024, Thursday, Friday night, 11:51pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California, USA. Drove back from Victorville yesterday morning and worked from home. Today, worked out at the gym, picked the dog up, took her to the groomers, took my daughter to Dunkin’ for lunch/breakfast, picked the dog up, took her home, hung out with my daughter on the couch watching YouTube then came home and went to bed early. I am tired of work filling up all five days of the week. There are no skate days with this job. It is exhausting. Also, my daughter’s California grandma continues to deal with health issues. I don’t know many details. I believe at this point, she is in Santa Barbara at a skilled nursing facility. Most likely the family is going to sell her house and move her to Valencia, closer to family. That means last weeks trip will be the last time we go to Lompoc. That makes me sad.