August 19,2024, Monday afternoon, 2:10pm, pacific standard time, California Adventure, Anaheim, California,USA. I am across from Guardians of the galaxy, waiting for my daughter and her boyfriend. A lot has changed for me since the last time I came to Disneyland. It was August 2019. Two months before I last saw the WIL and two months before I had to change how I approached work. I was working sales in hospice and could not hold a job. When the pressure came in that position I doubled down on stress and effort. That led to some of the problems I deal with now, physically and emotionally. Physically I have the stress ball under my right rib that never goes away and causes me ingestion. Emotionally, I am unable to lose myself in a moment like this. The little kid in me has diminished so much he is all but gone. I am not complaining. There was no need to be stuck in perpetual childhood. And it has served me well professionally. But I wish, just for today, I could feel the sense of escape I used to know.
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