November 30, 2024, Saturday night, 7:41pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Walked the dog this morning then went to the gym to workout. I was slightly worse for the wear after a couple drinks last night. This afternoon I took my daughter to get a burger then set up Christmas decorations at the Aliso apartment. Afterwards, my daughter, her mom and I played board games before calling it a night.

November 29, 2024, Friday afternoon, 1:02pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California,USA. My happiness, sense of purpose and logical next career move is contingent on synthesizing my inner dialogue and outward interactions into one coherent whole. That means embracing my role as a Humanist Chaplain. The Humanist Chaplain.

November 28, 2024, Thursday night, Thanksgiving, 6:05pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Started the day at the gym then traveled to Sylmar with my daughter and her mom. That is where my daughters grandma is doing rehab, post back surgery. After the visit we met extended family La Crescenta for a Chinese food thanksgiving. I just got home about 20 minutes ago. I had some more to eat and am currently watching football.

November 27, 2024, Wednesday afternoon, 4:40pm, pacific standard time, office building parking lot, Laguna Niguel, California, USA. The Torrance opportunity didn’t pan out. The recruiter offered to tell me why but I don’t care. It was not a good situation (hiring behind someone’s back) and I had no interest in moving to Torrance. The Rancho job seems to be going in a similar direction. The meeting with the Senior VP wasn’t bad but it wasn’t great either. At this point the plan is to pivot away from hospice. I need a fresh perspective. Right now, my future looks like a static filled television channel, all disorienting noise and distraction.

November 26, 2024, Tuesday morning, 7:30am, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Since my previous job ended a darkness has followed me. One minute I am at peace and the next filled with dread. Back and forth goes my countenance like a ping pong ball. Where I once basked in a warm glow of purpose now resides a cold slab of indifference. I no longer know why I exist. I trip through the day, enduring a fear that I am slipping away. Maybe that is a good thing. I wasn’t really happier before. Yet I feel unmoored. As if all they I am could be blown away at any moment. Who am I? What do I stand for? What do I hope to achieve? Questions that swirl like a phantom with no answers in sight.

November 25, 2024, Monday evening, 5:42pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Had a call with the marketing person for the rancho job. I really think that is the better opportunity at the moment. The recruiter for the Torrance position reached out to me. I will talk to her in the morning. I couldn’t call this afternoon because I went with my family to see the movie Wicked at the Cinepolis theater in Laguna Niguel. I also have a final meeting at noon tomorrow with the senior VP for the Rancho job.

November 24, 2024, Sunday evening, 5:06pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Today was a perfect day. Woke up just after 5am, walked and worked out. Then I stayed home and watched football until 2pm. After that I ran errands all over town. I went to the hardware store, Starbucks, Albertsons, Home Depot, sprouts, BevMo and the post office. All while enjoying a beautiful Southern California November day. This week is thanksgiving break so no school. Everything came together for a magical moment. Now I am sipping a drink and watching a little television.

November 23, 2024, Saturday morning, 11:49am, pacific standard time, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California,USA. One of my friends from high school passed away today, or maybe it was yesterday. He had cancer. By all accounts it was a tough and painful situation. I am glad he is not suffering any more but it is still hard to hear the news. At this point death is no longer a tragedy but rather an inevitability.

November 21,22, 2024, Friday afternoon, 3:57pm, pacific standard time, parking lot by my daughters school, Laguna Hills, California,USA. Two more interviews with the Torrance group yesterday and today. On Monday I have a call with the Rancho team. I also was contacted about an area director role but that looks like it is up north. Right now I am going to grab my daughter and take her home then probably pick up her boyfriend so they can spend time together at her moms house.

November 20, 2024, Wednesday afternoon, 2:46pm, pacific standard time, parking lot in Laguna Hills, California,USA. The interview with the Torrance team went well. I have two more calls scheduled, one tomorrow and one Friday. The Rancho group got back to me and wants to schedule two interviews this week as well. It would be nice to get them all out of the way before the weekend. Other than that there hasn’t been much response from my application activity. I guess it is a slow time of year. Right now I am picking up my daughter early from school. The last two mornings have been trying for everyone. She doesn’t like school and I can’t blame her. next week is thanksgiving break. that will be a nice reprieve.