December 20,2024, Friday evening, 5:10pm, pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Had a good talk this morning with the recruiter for the Pleasant Hill non-profit COO position. I sent her an updated resume. We are going to talk more on Monday. She said they want to make a decision soon and she is presenting candidates in two weeks. I did not hear from the Costa Mesa team. Other than that I took the dog to get groomed and got a couple grocery items. My mom and niece were going to leave tomorrow but pushed back their trip to Monday. They will still be here by Christmas on Wednesday

December 19, 2024, 6pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California, USA. Was contacted by a recruiter today for a COO position in the Bay Area. Though I am not keen on moving out of Orange County the opportunity is intriguing. I am much more excited by a step up than a step down in responsibility and pay. one thing I need to address is making my resume more professional. I looked at examples online. I am going to try a couple things and also reach out to a resume writer.

December 18, 2024, Wednesday evening, 6pm, pacific standard time, rock school parking lot, San Juan Capistrano, California, USA. My daughter has her live band audition tonight. I just dropped her off and am waiting until she finishes in an hour. Then I will take her home and circle back to Dana Point. Personally today has been good. I let go of some old mindsets about work and creativity. Now I have a new perspective on my purpose. That being said, I didn’t not hear from The Costa Mesa team today. Not that it was expected. I knew we weren’t meeting today and there was nothing to discuss. I am just tired of standing on the sidelines. And my severance is going to run out soon.

December 17,2024, Tuesday afternoon, 2:17pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Moving into this apartment two years ago I envisioned it as a touch down space. A “storage unit I slept in.” Part of that was necessity, there isn’t much storage space. Another part was traveling for work and spending time with my daughter. I didn’t need the perfect living space. I wanted something in the 92629 zip code that was half-way decent. This fit the bill. I was willing to overlook the lack of cozy comfort for location and lifestyle. Now, three months into a job transition, my needs have changed. I want more than a storage unit. With my niece and mom coming next week I want it to be homey and presentable. So far, so good. This weekend I bought things to make it more comfortable. The last thing I need is a decent chair for the bedroom. Once that is procured, the space will be inviting. On a professional note the VP for Costa Mesa reached out again. It doesn’t look like we are meeting tomorrow. I don’t expect anything until 2025 but it would be nice to have an offer in place with a start date. I keep thinking more jobs will open in 2025. Unfortunately, being patient isn’t always a luxury afforded.

December 16, 2024, Monday evening, 6:28pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. My daughter was upset yesterday, though she wouldn’t tell me why. Turns out she missed the audition deadline at her music school. Fortunately she has chance to make it up on Wednesday. Another step in her journey to be a larger than life stage performer. I wanted the same thing when I was her age. Hard to believe how fast the time has gone since those teenage years. On a professional note, I heard from the Costa Mesa VP. We are going to meet in LA on Wednesday.

December 15,2024, Sunday evening, 7;07:pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Watching the Packer /Seahawk game right now. Today I bought a new lamp, some rugs and a shower curtain. The curtain is to partition off the bathroom. The rugs and lamp are to create a space for my mom to sit. Her and my niece are coming out next week and I want them to be comfortable. The last thing I need is a comfortable chair for my mom to use in the bedroom so she and my niece have privacy. I also started decorating for Christmas.

December 14, 2024, Saturday morning, 8:51am, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. If I had all the time in the world I still wouldn’t know what to do. I love the process of creating but I find no pleasure in sharing my work. I purposefully avoid interacting with an “audience” and being beholden to expectations. I don’t say that as a point of pride, the opposite actually. I am isolated from relationships; artistically, professionally and personally. I used to think that was authentic, even noble. But in reality, it just means I am alone.

December 13, 2024, Friday evening, 6:45pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Worked out, took my daughter to school, came home and took it easy. Still dealing with cold symptoms though starting to feel better. I picked my daughter up at 4pm, then picked her bf up in Ladera, dropped them off in Aliso Viejo then came home. Not a monumental day but not too terrible either.

Decmeber 12, 2024, Thursday afternoon, 2:18m, pacific standard time, office building parking lot, Laguna Niguel, California, USA. Just received a call from the Rancho VP. He was gauging my interest in taking the Orange County branch instead. I told him I would prefer that. We are scheduling a dinner for next week with the VP of sales and marketing. This could work out well. I need to get back into reality. I have spent too much time alone with my thoughts. It is making me stir crazy.

December 11,2024, Wednesday night, 6:44pm, pacific standard time, parking lot, rock school, San Juan Capistrano, California, USA. I have been feeling under the weather since Monday morning. DayQuil helped but it has worn off. My daughter is almost done with her singing lesson. Once I take her home I will get to my house and sleep. I haven’t heard from rancho this week. The VP texted me on Sunday saying he wanted to talk but hasn’t reached out yet. I’m the meantime I am going to spruce up my chaplain resume and see what happens. I got another email from The Humanist Society about sending Christmas cards to inmates. I will volunteer to do that.