January 20, 2025, Monday morning, 10:54am, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. For as long as I can remember I have been on a quest for assured confidence in all life’s endeavors. I sought out, learned and practiced various strategies specifically aimed at increasing my conviction. The goal being to overcome negative thoughts and subsequently be more successful. Yet, with honest reflection, those intruders are more likely self-imposed obstacles to heighten the fear of failure. In short, I subconsciously undercut my confidence to increase risk and get a high. I noticed this as I keep practicing guitar and continue to gain more confidence. With the guitar my mind goes to a different pathway rather than the same frustrating fear. I can isolate the negative thoughts and choose a new perspective. This time off will be remembered for finding a great new mindset and enjoying playing music again.
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