8:05pm a lot of thoughts in my head. Concentrate on letting go. Blank space. Release. Relief

9:47am I had a dream about the WIL last night. I am haunted by memories. The losses in life can be devastating.

“Don’t say it’s over, cause that’s the worse news I could here..” Avett Brothers, if its the beaches

“No authority, no institution, no outer concrete reality has the power to relieve them of their anxiety and loneliness and make them free.” The Wounded Healer, pg 28

Life is just shuffling a deck of cards. No matter the material changes the fundamental structure remains the same.

2:27pm at work. I have had such a shitty last ten years. I don’t know how to stay at a job. How to be loyal. How to accept loyalty

9:18am made it to work today. Slept in this morning. Feeling nostalgic. First day of summer vacation for my daughter. She is in sailing camp.

5:03pm Sunday’s are easier when I don’t try to solve Monday. I can’t avoid the pain of transition. why try?

9:53am packing up to leave Dana Point. Heading out to Arizona. The life I am meant to live right now.

I wasted so much energy trying to be something I was not. I was always scheming to “improve” I am just me the rest of the way in

4:40pm at the mall. The girls are shopping. I came to the food court to grab something to eat. Wait. The mall is less stressful to let them walk around on their own.

2:27pm Dana Point, not as much need to reset thinking on weekends. Happy and content. Watching a movie with my daughter