October 18,2025,Saturday night,8:00pm, pacific standard time,apartment complex parking lot,Dana Point, California, USA. I have forgotten what being drunk feels like. When I look back I marvel about how many days I spent nursing hangovers and feeling sick. It must have felt pretty good to be drunk. Many happy memories occurred when I had a couple drinks, I am not saying imbibing was all bad. More pointing out how much I have changed since the beginning of the year. What once was important to me I now can barely recall.

October 17,2025,Friday night,7:44pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point,USA. Today is the 19 year anniversary of my dad’s death. I didn’t dwell on that fact very much throughout the day but now I have time to reflect. I am thankful for the life he gave me and his love. My dad was a very caring man. He saw the best in people. That is what I remember most about him. No matter what a persons story, background or profession my dad treated them as a human being, worthy of respect. Since he died my life trajectory has changed drastically. I spend more time trying to out run his legacy than embracing it. I am not sure where that attitude developed but it isn’t necessary. My dad was greatly respected in the community. When he died the newspaper ran the headline, the editorial and the sports page about him. He was a very good man. I love and miss him always.

October 16,2025,Thursday evening,6:33pm, pacific standard time, in Dana Point,USA. I am not feeling it today. IDT meetings always drain me. Around noon I started to feel congestion and my eyes got sticky. I took ibuprofen and DayQuil and popped out my contracts. That helped a little but I am ready for bed. I texted my daughter and told her I would see her tomorrow.

October 15,2025,Wednesday evening,6:30pm,parking lot, school of rock, San Juan Capistrano,California,USA. This morning at work I realized I was walked around for some time with my fly open. That is kind of embarrassing. Put a damper on my mood today. On the plus side, I finished my 3rd 1000 entries for 10,000 bricks. And we had our highest admit day since I started this job. Staying in a positive mindset and being thankful is the key to happiness and success. I will choose to be positive and happy today.

October 14,2025,Tuesday night,7:30pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point,,USA. Woke up around 2 this morning and went to EOS for a workout. It wasn’t too bad. The storm came in later than expected so it wasn’t necessary to use the gym but no worries. I am still glad I tried it. After the gym I came straight home and had breakfast before taking a nap and heading to work. This evening I took my daughter to dinner and we drove around, listening to music until the sun set behind dispersing rain clouds. All in all not a bad Southern California fall day. it feels good to be alive.

October 13,2025,Monday night,6:56pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point,USA. Got up at 2:18 this morning and did the PCH/Blue Lantern walk. I was dragging the whole way. When I got home I ate a protein bar and drank some water then went right back to bed for an extra hour of sleep. At 6am I got ready and made it to work with time to spare. It was a good day. My energy stayed up the whole time. I didn’t even take a Power Nap. My legs are still a little sore, but in a good way. Otherwise I am good after a lot of walking yesterday. We will see how tomorrow goes. Tonight it is supposed to storm. Time to use my EOS membership. I call it my insurance policy in case of situations just like this.

October 12,2025,Sunday afternoon,3:52pm,pacific standard time,Jiffy Lube, Aliso Viejo, California, USA. Getting my oil changed and replacing a couple brake lights out on my car. I probably need to replace the front brakes but will wait until the next service. This morning I slept in then went for the double walk along PCH and Blue Lantern. After a little rest I walked up pacific island and went to Planet Fitness in Laguna Niguel. 4:10pm Aliso Viejo. I came home and did laundry and got ready for the week. Now I am in Aliso Viejo. I am going to walk the dog and enjoy the rest of this afternoon.

October 11,2025,Saturday night,7:42pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point,USA. I was tired this morning. Work woke me up with calls a couple times last night so that threw me off. I slept until 6am and had to eat breakfast before I could go for a walk. I walked up Pacific Island then worked out at Planet Fitness. In the afternoon I went to Aliso to take my daughter to lunch and walk the dog. This evening my daughter, her mom and I shopped at the San Clemente Target. It has been a good day. I did enough to keep busy but not so much it stressed me out. If only all Saturdays were so easy going.

October 10,2025, Friday night,8:49pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point,,USA. My daughter and I went to the Spirit Halloween store in San Clemente this evening. We picked out a couple decorations for her house. One for her room and one for their living room. I didn’t see anything I liked. Maybe I will find something at Target this weekend. I want to decorate my patio for the holiday.

October 9,2025, Thursday night, 8:07pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point, California. I am perpetually moving forward. There was a time when I was more prone to pull back and rest. Now I drive ahead. It is a new energy for me. I am mindful of the good and the bad. In previous mindsets I was prone to isolation and depression. Now I have a tendency to get anxious. I am much happier than I was but I also am aware there are times I need to gear down and relax.