My happiness. Job girlfriend, purpose, calling

Moved to California. Thought about joining the army, being a teacher then hospice chaplain

I keep checking my text, email and job boards. I can’t get a spark. Nothing seems to be cooking.

Got job and territory included Utah. Only time I was happy since being chaplain.

What can I say about Modesto? Good job but miserable. New hire came in. On way out

Took time to work on my leadership of the religiously unaffiliated. That lasted about two months then Modesto

Quite a step up in pay and responsible. Now a sales genius.

The job was good. Things were going well. Then hired new person. It was like being hired as an offensive coordinator just before the new head coach was hired. Person came in. Chased me off. I was bitter but the clinical nurse was next and she just was promoted and had Been there nine years. Hers was probably the rawer deal.

There are a lot of jobs to apply for so writing this at least is doing something.

Job 14 hmmm what will it be?

It is hard to get excited .

The fact is jobs suck so changing them doesn’t really change much. People are crazy in different ways.

I worry about finances but honestly I have been so broke for so long that doesn’t even worry me as much.

This whole narrative seems jumbled and convoluted.

By the time I took the executive director job I had been in the field or not working in an office over 9 years. I was miserable. I was a bird in a cage. I was responsible for others when I only wanted to be responsible for myself. I needed to get out of utah to raise my daughter. I started applying for a jobs a week after getting the job. I purposely was using it as a springboard to get a better job out of state.

I applied for jobs as far away as Alabama when a recruiter called and discussed a position on Orange County California

When I was a hospice chaplain I had freedom. I drove all over northern utah. I saw the backroads and neighbor hoods