December 6, 2024, Friday evening, 5:19pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California, USA. I did not hear from the rancho group this week after they said a meeting with branch clinical leadership would be arranged. I will follow up Monday. I don’t like being beholden to this company. They don’t seem eager to get this issue resolved. . However there isn’t much else to do. Options will remain thin until January.

December 5, 2024, Thursday night, 9:16pm, pacific standard, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California,USA. Took my daughter and her mom to LAX this afternoon. They flew to Dallas to attend an anime convention in Fort Worth this weekend. I am going to spend the next three days dog sitting in Aliso.

December 4, 2024, Wednesday evening 5:19pm, pacific standard time, parking lot of Albertsons, Ladera Ranch, California, USA. For various reasons I have six unopened bags of chips in my trunk, ten bottles of water and a box of crackers. I am feeling like a crazy old man. I need to figure out the job thing soon. Too much free time is driving me crazy.

December 3, 2024, Tuesday afternoon, 1:50pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Yesterday I contemplated how I interact with media. Though I read articles online I also watch videos on YouTube . If that is how I get information odds are most people do the same. So to engage with an audience I need to meet them where they are. But how? I have made videos in the past but never liked them and frankly found them boring. I needed a fresh approach. Then this morning I remembered videos I enjoyed where there were no words or narration. No on camera presence. Maybe I could do something like that? I decided to film waking up and my trip to the gym. I also filmed myself walking the dog. The good news is I got a lot of footage. The bad news is it takes a time and skill to edit it all. As a result my first video is me waking up. As I get better at filming and editing I can make longer videos. All in all I am proud of my first effort.

December 2, 2024, Monday afternoon, 4:20pm, pacific standard time, parking lot by my daughters school l, Laguna Hills, California,USA. I spoke with the Torrance recruiter today. She said they were unsure about moving forward because I didn’t have knowledge of the Los Angeles market. Which doesn’t matter because I have been successful in multiple markets. It is alright, I wasn’t going to take the job anyway. Rancho also reached out today. They want me to meet with the team at the office and then go to dinner next week. I don’t have anything else going on so I am up for more interviews however the process is getting a little absurd. At this point I talked with the VP of operations on the phone, met with him in person, interviewed with the VP of sales, the VP of clinical, the director of sales and the division Vice President. I have been interviewing for this job over a month already. Best case scenario I wouldn’t start until the beginning of 2025.

December 1, 2024, Sunday night, 6:15pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. I lived the life I wanted to live. Or at least the best one I could. It isn’t unusual to ponder what I could have done differently. Job choices, relationships, financial matters, living arrangements. Often I find myself wishing I had done things differently. Maybe I would have been more successful and happier. However, what’s done is done. I lived the life I lived. There is no changing the past. I can only venture forward, always forward.

November 30, 2024, Saturday night, 7:41pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Walked the dog this morning then went to the gym to workout. I was slightly worse for the wear after a couple drinks last night. This afternoon I took my daughter to get a burger then set up Christmas decorations at the Aliso apartment. Afterwards, my daughter, her mom and I played board games before calling it a night.

November 29, 2024, Friday afternoon, 1:02pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California,USA. My happiness, sense of purpose and logical next career move is contingent on synthesizing my inner dialogue and outward interactions into one coherent whole. That means embracing my role as a Humanist Chaplain. The Humanist Chaplain.

November 28, 2024, Thursday night, Thanksgiving, 6:05pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Started the day at the gym then traveled to Sylmar with my daughter and her mom. That is where my daughters grandma is doing rehab, post back surgery. After the visit we met extended family La Crescenta for a Chinese food thanksgiving. I just got home about 20 minutes ago. I had some more to eat and am currently watching football.

November 27, 2024, Wednesday afternoon, 4:40pm, pacific standard time, office building parking lot, Laguna Niguel, California, USA. The Torrance opportunity didn’t pan out. The recruiter offered to tell me why but I don’t care. It was not a good situation (hiring behind someone’s back) and I had no interest in moving to Torrance. The Rancho job seems to be going in a similar direction. The meeting with the Senior VP wasn’t bad but it wasn’t great either. At this point the plan is to pivot away from hospice. I need a fresh perspective. Right now, my future looks like a static filled television channel, all disorienting noise and distraction.