Weekend plans

6:22pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Friday evening, March 11, 2022. Today was better than yesterday, not as stressful. That said, the arrival of a quiet weekend is more than welcome. There is nothing on my agenda except a trip to a grocery store, and perhaps a casino. I don’t know. Gambling isn’t as fun as it used to be, but it is better than sitting at home all weekend.

That effing office

5:58pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Thursday night, March 10, 2022. Burn out is creeping into my soul. Work became chaotic at the beginning of the year and has remained that way ever since. I thought things would slow down, but they have not, and probably never will. I am so damn frustrated and I am beyond tired of going into that effing office everyday.

See how the year plays out

7:40pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Wednesday evening, March 9, 2022. After much thought and inner debate, I renewed my Arizona lease this afternoon. The choice was based on a number of factors; cost savings, lack of desire to move or change jobs, and perceived economic instability from current events.along those lines, my daughters mom told me the emergency plan is for the family to rendezvous at my apartment. That alone was enough to sway me but then she mentioned in California if you let your lease expire they can raise your rent to market rate, where if you renew there is a cap on the amount they are able to increase. I don’t know if that is true in Arizona, but in the end I made the decision to stay. Of course nothing is set in stone, so we will see how the year plays out.

Something better will come along

4:41pm, office, Phoenix, Arizona, Tuesday afternoon, March 8, 2022. I missed posting yesterday. That was disappointing because I usually post at least once a day. I got busy in the morning and feel asleep early last night so I missed doing my job. oh well, I can’t go back and change the past. Now I am in my office waiting for the new clinical director to pack up and leave. I hope she gets out soon, I want to go home. Today has been a busy, long, painful experience. We have process issues and I am getting tired of dealing with them. The recruiter contacted me about the Orange County job. They offered the job to someone else. Apparently, I was their second choice. I can’t say I am overly disappointed, the opportunity didn’t seem right. When I am ready, something better will come along.

Whales of appreciation

&:02pm, also, Chandler, Arizona, Friday night, March 4, 2022. Today was employee appreciation day. We ordered pizza and ice cream for the staff. Only five people attended, but everyone appreciated the gesture. Even though they didn’t come, at least they knew something was offered. Often that is enough to make people feel valued. I am going to Southern California tomorrow to attend Whale Fest on Dana Point with my daughter and her friend.

Draining

6:07pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Wednesday evening, March 2, 2022. The employee quit before we could share a corrective action plan. The resignation was a blessing because her performance was detrimental to the team and it meant we didn’t need to draw out the process any longer. After that I presented financials to the regional team. The day has been draining. I am ready to just go to bed and fall asleep.

Curl up in a ball

6:14pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Tuesday evening, March 1, 2022. Last night I woke up in a panic, thinking about issues with billing for the prior month. The problem seems somewhat resolved but operations review is tomorrow afternoon. There is no way it will end up well. Some days I want to just curl up in a ball and hide from the world.

Bad mouthing me

6:41pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Monday night, February 28, 2022. Today was alright. I had a little too much wine after dinner last night so the time went slow. There was no painful hangover but my energy was lacking. There is a lot of stress on the team right now, myself included. The time has come to address the performance of a key team member. We have to make a change in that position in order to be profitable. I am not used to that aspect of the job. I have helped move people out that have bad attitudes, but not someone simply because they aren’t good at their job. She has been bad mouthing me behind my back though, so it won’t be that hard.

Sipping a beverage on a Sunday

5:30pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Sunday evening, February 27, 2022. Made it back to Arizona after a weekend in California. Did the usual morning walk followed by coffee. After my daughter woke up we watched more anime before I left at 10:30am. Traffic wasn’t too bad so I got in at a decent hour. Now I am listening to John Prine and sipping a beverage.

I like driving

8:55am, palm desert, California, Saturday morning, February 26, 2022. Stopped in palm desert on my way to Orange County. This will be the third weekend in a row I visit my daughter. Which makes me happy. I can’t see many reasons to stay in Arizona if I don’t have to. It gets lonely in my apartment, there is nothing to do and besides, I like driving.