5:55am, apartment, chandler, Arizona, Wednesday morning, January 19, 2022. If I wake up at 2am I am frustrated because it is too early to get out of bed. If I wake up at 3am I am frustrated because it is too late to go back to sleep. If I wake up at 4am I am frustrated because I have to get up. If I wake up at 5am I am frustrated I overslept. Why do I act like experience is the cause of my feelings instead of the other way around? The feeling never changes inside me, just my excuse.
Tag: excuse
Protecting my ego
Sometimes I lose focus when I exercise.
I begin full of enthusiasm but as I tire I think about quitting or easing up.
I fixate on the time I have left. I ask myself why am I training so hard? I think I should pace myself or quit early.
The same is true with my career objectives. I start full of enthusiasm but when it becomes difficult I begin to pull back.
My mind wanders. I day dream about winning the lottery, catalog excuses for failure or wonder if I should look for a new job.
The fear I can’t achieve my objective, initially or consistently makes me fall back on my default objective, protecting my ego. It is seductively easy to accept failure and find an excuse. Staying focused and on task is not simple or immediate. It is a choice made every day, every minute, often multiple times a day.
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