Night one: sharing a room with mom

7:22am, pacific standard time, hotel lobby in Palm Desert, California, USA, Tuesday morning, December 20, 2022. My mom and I made it through the first night sharing a hotel room with only a king bed. The couch pulled out for a surprisingly comfortable hide-a-bed and the desk has rollers for an impromptu partisan. This morning I woke up early to exercise then stayed in the lobby drinking coffee and watching sports. At 7am I went back up to shower, get dressed and reassemble the couch. Mom is still asleep and I am downstairs for another cup of coffee before heading to the office. It isn’t perfect but, we are making the best of the situation.

Halloween 2022

4:54pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA, October 31, 2022, Halloween. Took my daughter to school this morning, did a couple of calls for work, got a haircut, exercised in the afternoon, then picked my daughter up. Now we are getting ready to visit friend’s for pizza dinner and trick-or-treating. I am wearing the shirt I bought for the party last Saturday. Happy Halloween 🎃

My Halloween shirt 2022

Preparing

5:24pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Chandler, Arizona, USA, Sunday evening, September 21, 2022. Woke up later than usual this morning. It was too late to walk or exercise so I had breakfast with a friend then came home to watch football and read. In the afternoon I went for a drive and visited the casino. Now I am doing laundry and preparing for the next two weeks of work.

A good September Saturday

4:07pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Chandler, Arizona, USA, Saturday afternoon, September 10, 2022. Going to see a friend this evening, have dinner and hang out. This morning I exercised, paid my bills and finished some things for work. Then I ran to the store for groceries, watched football, took a nap and played guitar. A good September Saturday.

August 23, 2022

6:51pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Chandler, Arizona, USA, Thursday evening, August 23, 2022. Spent most of the day watching orientation videos. However, I did manage to go grocery shopping and exercise this afternoon. At 3:30pm there was a conference call that ended the day. I will spend the rest of the day reading before turning in.

Simply existing

5:01pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Chandler, Arizona, USA, Thursday evening, August 4, 2022. Had another good day. Spent time reading, writing, walking, exercising and taking a couple of naps. Nice to have the family here visiting and enjoy simply existing.

How I spent my Saturday morning

8:04am, in my apartment, chandler Arizona, Saturday morning, December 4, 2021. Woke up at 4am. Went for a walk, went to the gym at the complex and worked out. Watched television, drank coffee, had a protein bar. Then I took out the trash, unboxed some new shoes, loaded the dishwasher, wiped down the counters and put things away. Going to get out the Christmas decorations and stream Christmas music. 9:18am, got everything out and put up decorations. Time to take a break. Side note: for the past year I kept a plastic box On my balcony I assumed held an escape ladder. I opened it and realized it was just some pieces of a ladder we threw out a decade ago. Glad I didn’t discover that when there was an actual fire. Side note x 2: go buy an escape ladder

Living room
Thought was escape ladder
Nice hinges, but no ladder
Placement to be determined

12:12pm being lazy, watched some television, took a nap, snacking/grazing, on string cheese, salami, salad, peanuts, crackers, Doritos and coke. I am going to post this now.

Protecting my ego

Sometimes I lose focus when I exercise.

I begin full of enthusiasm but as I tire I think about quitting or easing up.

I fixate on the time I have left. I ask myself why am I training so hard? I think I should pace myself or quit early.

The same is true with my career objectives. I start full of enthusiasm but when it becomes difficult I begin to pull back.

My mind wanders. I day dream about winning the lottery, catalog excuses for failure or wonder if I should look for a new job.

The fear I can’t achieve my objective, initially or consistently makes me fall back on my default objective, protecting my ego. It is seductively easy to accept failure and find an excuse. Staying focused and on task is not simple or immediate. It is a choice made every day, every minute, often multiple times a day.