4:54pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA, October 31, 2022, Halloween. Took my daughter to school this morning, did a couple of calls for work, got a haircut, exercised in the afternoon, then picked my daughter up. Now we are getting ready to visit friend’s for pizza dinner and trick-or-treating. I am wearing the shirt I bought for the party last Saturday. Happy Halloween 🎃
5:33pm, pacific standard time, Dana Point, California, USA, Saturday evening, June 11, 2022. Had a day at the park with acquaintances to celebrate our daughter’s 8th grade promotion. Last night, a couple of friends stayed the night. The apartment was so full I slept on a blow up mattress in the dining area. Now, my daughter has a friend over to watch anime. We will leave soon to grab dinner and take the friend home.
6:11pm, pacific standard time, Dana Point, California, USA, Sunday evening, May 29, 2022. Woke up around 4:30am, took the dog for a walk, got coffee and dog treats, then came home to read articles online. At 9am I went for a quick work out, followed by some grocery shopping and a good bathroom cleaning. This afternoon we visited friends for a small get together and bbq. Now we are home relaxing for the rest of the evening.
5:40am I don’t know how to change. How to be different. I don’t know what I would do if this blog were “discovered.” How would my world change if I received attention? I work in hospice. I have a public persona but the real me remains hidden. Writing these posts is a way to put myself out there to be discovered. But there is dissonance. The hospice director is a carefully crafted facade. It serves purpose. It is a image I use to make money and care for my family. The post writer is the inner me. He is the voice in my head. My best friend. what would I do if people at work saw these posts? What if prospective employers saw them? Family, friends. Strangers? I want more than anything to be known. I want more than anything to remain hidden.
My introverted self only takes relationships to a superficial level. In order to achieve my objective I need to develop more interpersonal skills. I had a great lunch really connected. But on a personal level that is all I usually do. I don’t have close friends I talk with regularly or build close relationships. I am good at going to the lunch, small talk, making plans but not following through. Hence why I am not consistent and I don’t sustain growth
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