Tag: girls

Thursday evening

6:07pm sitting at the dining room table eating ice cream. My wife is watching a show online. The girls are playing a game. The dog just finished her dinner. 6:16pm as I wrote that the dog was acting suspicious . I took her out to go to the bathroom. Today was a wonderful day. We went to the activity center then ate lunch. After that we went back to the activity center and hung out for another hour and half. It felt so good to be out of the office. To not be doing the usual work routine. I knew I was stressed but I didn’t realize how much until I broke free.

At the pool

4:03pm brought the girls to the swimming pool at the complex. It is hot. I am sitting in the shade and sweating. We have been here an hour. They were getting a little crazy in the apartment. Good for them to work off energy. Good for me to get out of the house. Even sitting here feeling anxious is better than sitting in the apartment cycling over nothing.

Sunday Afternoon

1:16pm family is here. They arrived a quarter before 10am. We went and got drive thru breakfast then went to the grocery store. The heat was already well over 100 degrees by the time we got back home. Now my wife is taking a nap in the back bedroom. The girls are watching a movie. Life feels good. Yet I have anxiety. Nothing is causing it. It is just a constant feeling. If I meditate and focus I can imagine I am in a time share or hotel room. We are on vacation. When I think about that I can remember what it felt like to be alive. To feel highs and lows. These days my emotions are ground down. I sometimes feel frustrated but seldom feel contentment.