Can life be improved?

8:33am, office, Phoenix, Arizona, Thursday morning, January 13, 2022. What is left to improve? Relationships? Money? Work? Housing? Freedom? Adventure? Can I upgrade the larger aspects of my life or will regression occur by trying?

Who am I?

3:56pm I spend so much time trying to figure out who I want to be. I am always trying to change something, improve, grow, get better. I never examine who I am. I never really know what I am about. I don’t stop and say, “this is me.” I am a guy who is good at getting jobs. I like to get jobs. I am good at it. The interview went well this morning.

Justified

5:46am A lot of energy goes into lamenting who I am not. I mourn the person I failed to become. I wonder about the paths I did not travel. I feel I have to prove I made right choices. That arriving here and now was the best outcome. I spend a lot of time in these posts trying to improve. Change my attitude, my approach. I believe if I achieve quantifiable results in tenure, money, census I will justified

Shift

1:29am I use positive language. Shift focus. True voice. Side note: staying in true voice means not talking in future tense “I need to do…” or “I have to change…” true voice also means not getting stuck in observations. “I always…” or “when ________ happens I ______.” There is a rough patch at work. Frustration with my teams performance. I am falling into familiar feelings. I am saying familiar things. And I am doing exactly what I said not too! (Future change and observation) I am shifting now…I am the captain. I am the coach. I hold people accountable. I improve performance. I raise expectations. I am a leader. I win.

improve

5:55am yesterday was difficult at work. After a nights sleep I realize as the leader we will use the experience to get better. We will improve. It is the opportunity to reach the next level. Change does not happen without pain.

Commit to Growth

Commit to the goal of growth. There are only three options in life; get better, stay the same or get worse. Constantly striving to improve will break your heart but it is better than the other two.