1:14pm I left the office to go visit a facility. I am going to get a contract updated. I needed to get out of the office and interact with someone. When I left I realized I had a big yogurt stain in the crotch of my pants. Not a good look. I just pulled in to my apartment complex. I will go change then head out. Elaborating more on living in my head; social interactions, business meetings, dating. In my mind I am amazing and successful at these things. In reality I feel inadequate. I don’t do good in those settings. In my mind I am a winner. In real life I feel defeated. I take the “L.” I stay in my mind because there I always have the answer. In my mind I am charismatic. In my mind I am a better version of me.