Monday morning

5:49am in the apartment, on the couch. Sipping coffee and watching the weather. The temperature is supposed to be high this week. I like the cooler air. I would rather wear a jacket. I live in the wrong place. I am thinking about change. Do I want to change work? One factor to consider is pay. The job in Denver says the rate they are starting at is 10% higher than my salary now. a higher pay check would alleviate pressure. I ran through a lot of retirement and savings in Orange County. I incurred debt. While I have made more money since switching to operations I am getting by, not getting ahead. A raise in pay could change my circumstances.

Sink or swim

12:45pm I have been doing this stupid process for almost 12 years. I thought I could develop better habits. That I would learn to swim by putting myself in situations that necessitated change. Instead of swimming I just continually sink. I am a weird fucker. Good enough to get decent paying jobs but not good enough to succeed in them. My only hope is to get in a successful situation and be a part of it as long as possible. This site was a dog before I took it over. I was ignorant thinking I could save it. Of course I was even more desperate for a job/income than I was arrogant about my abilities. Now the situation is set. I am committed to doing my best. Turning it around. Making it successful. I can’t guarantee I will succeed but I will do my best. Even if that means getting out of my head and interacting with the world

No promises

When I coach people I do everything in my power to give them the opportunity to experience to achieve their objective. I make no promises or guarantees. Failure is likely. It is a high risk situation. Only if people are willing to pay, to sacrifice, to risk can they possible grow. You have to be willing to do everything in your power to achieve your objective no matter how long it takes.

Give people an experience

“Come in and welcome.” You are in control, don’t ask questions of what someone likes, rather anticipate needs. If you don’t know what they like to drink order coffee, water, tea, lemonade, and soda. Give them a gift. Tell them where to sit “You can sit right here.” The vast majority of people float through life looking to have an experience and expect to pay to receive it. Give them an experience.