Invigorated by the process

5:20pm, pacific standard time, pool at the apartment complex, Chandler, Arizona, USA, Tuesday evening, August 2, 2022. I spent a couple of hours today working on the piece I resurrected back in June. Working on it is different than anything I have done the past 20+ years of writing. In those instances I was alone in the act of creation; trying to use my skills, my imagination, my tenacity and anything else I could muster to make something out of nothing. This piece feels separate from me, almost like a gift. It exists as a wonderful story on its own. My purpose is not to birth it out of alchemy but rather, to spend time making it as beautiful as possible. Subsequently, I am invigorated by the process and excited to see the finished product.

Wednesday night

7:50pm back at the pool area. Long day at work. Glad it is over. More glad the anticipation of tomorrow is over. June is finished. The company sale closes at midnight tonight. Probably eastern or central time so before midnight here. The pool is crazy busy. We walked in and it was empty then a family with like 12 kids showed up. The girls are having fun so it doesn’t matter. I have a spot I can just sit and look at my phone. There is a tv here. The game was on the night before last. But the tv isn’t on and there is no way to get the game. Probably best. I can relax if I am not watching sports

At the pool

4:03pm brought the girls to the swimming pool at the complex. It is hot. I am sitting in the shade and sweating. We have been here an hour. They were getting a little crazy in the apartment. Good for them to work off energy. Good for me to get out of the house. Even sitting here feeling anxious is better than sitting in the apartment cycling over nothing.