Going to a movie

6:15pm Saturday evening. At a movie. First time in over a year. Feels nice to be out m. Also feels kind of reckless. Not many people wearing face coverings. I am with my daughter and her friend. They wanted to come so they could sneak around and go into scary movies. I am just sitting back and trying to relax

A battle for honesty

What is honest? Can I be too honest? Is honesty liberating. Is honesty confining? shameful? Do i help myself being honest? Do I hurt myself? Do I help others or do I recklessly hurt people being honest?

I have anxiety I limit my options ‘my outs’ if I am too honest. Honesty is a burden that cages me into only one way of being. It makes me answer uncomfortable questions, stand by stupid mistakes, own embarrassment and wear guilt.

Honesty is a multi layered concept. Even now I measure what detail to admit.