Killing time before the party

6:06pm, mountain standard time, parking lot in Ogden, Utah. Drove to Utah with my mom to attend a wedding reception/Halloween party for an old work friend. On the way we stopped at a costume store in Ogden to buy a t-shirt so I have something a little festive. The party doesn’t start until 7pm so we are waiting and killing time scrolling on our phones and talking.

Envy

I envy people that have a skill.

I do not work with tools, programs or machines. I start new jobs and I see people that know regulations, programs, software and I long for the weary yet confident familiarity they possess.

When I was an unaffiliated chaplain I saw that in the daily mass of catholic priests. I once strived for that with liturgical worship services I conducted. I had a skilled. I visited the dying. I performed funerals, weddings, baptisms.