6:36pm after dinner. New supervisor in town. Not a bad day. But feel tired. Noticed slipping into bad thought habits when I get tired. Counting time. Looking for signs I will get fired. Dreaming about the end. Things I normally did as a defense against anxiety many years ago. I would tear it down and threaten to throw away things to alleviate stress. Go home, rest and recharge. But in an environment where I want to succeed that negative talk puts doubt in my mind. Causes me even more stress.
I caught it and I refuse to indulge. I am in the moment. I am strong. Charismatic. Smart. Dedicated. Energetic. Powerful.
I feel my energy shift when I type those last sentences.
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