6:13am I am the captain. I do not focus on despair, fear or counting days. I am paid to deal with problems that naturally occur in business. I am successful. I am dedicated.
Author: mikemeyer949
Tmi
8:13pm I didn’t sit in my office chair very often today at work. The constipation was a little better. Sitting in the chair + Arizona heat is too much. Side note: work SUCKS. Not for usual reasons like previous nine jobs. I am sick of the ineptitude of my team and the entitlement of our referral sources. I need a vacation
Stay focused
10:48am stay focused. Confident. Assured. Positive. Captain. Leader. Champion
Mortality
5:27am Thursday. I don’t know if I can be honest. Weird post: I am dealing with constipation. It has been a week. It scares me. My dad died of a bowel obstruction. I am feeling mortal
Nouwen quoting Rogers
Nouwen quotes psychologist Carl Rogers on Pg 74 of The wounded Healer; “…that what is most personal and unique in each one of us is probably the very element which would, if it were shared or expressed, speak most deeply to others.” On Becoming a Person, Carl Rogers, p 26
Frustrated with team
5:47am after a good start to the week I had an anxiety attack yesterday afternoon. It wasn’t associated any event. I just went to work after lunch and was in a terrible mood. I don’t want to own negative energy. I am frustrated with the performance of my team. As a leader I need to improve their performance or replace them. I am not doing my job by allowing it to continue
Extreme Grouchy
2:08pm at the office. I got into an extremely grouchy mood all of the sudden. I locked myself in my office at work. I probably shouldn’t interact with people. I am in a bad mood
Contradiction of goals
7:27am in car, getting ready to drive to work. I say I want to achieve results but really I want peace of mind. I say I want to be known but I crave anonymity. Peace of mind and anonymity are dominant desires. I keep getting the same results. But I keep striving for being known and getting results.
Transcend
6:15am I am transcendent. I embody happiness and peace. Security, wealth, prosperity
Inner peace v results
1:21am Tuesday. Moment of clarity. The first part of my career was helping people achieve inner peace. My personal goal was inner peace. The last twelve years have been spent trying to achieve results. Specific results in the outside world.
