Extrovert

Being an extrovert does not mean happier. Yes when we think about being social at specific times I want to be outgoing.

When my daughter had fundraisers for her school they did it at a resort in Orange County. Most times I did not care what car I drove but pulling up in my old truck to the valet stand made me self conscious. But it was a specific time.

Most of my best friends are outgoing, charismatic, extroverts. But I know their struggle and heart to heart talks. They are not quantify happier. They live life a certain way and at times their personality and skill shine. I can say the same for me just at different times and places.

Objectives

$200,000

Utah regularly

Regular wins

Luxury late model car

Own three/four bedroom ocean view

$85,000

Utah

Late model Sentra

Rent two bedroom

The regular wins is the newcomer to the list. It used to be job satisfaction.

Free time to daydream, read, watch videos. Eat, drink coffee, beer. Write.

I am daydreaming, writing and eating right now 😊

The daydreaming, finding moments of peace and zen is my baseline. I naturally find them. I like them. They were my most cherished moments 10-15 years ago. I still like them but I am close to 48 years old. My career is winding down. I want to be good at something. Be proud of my work, be recognized and rewarded.

And sales suck.

I am not disappointed with the car. The house actually was an upgrade from when I started. I would like to make more money just to cover expenses. Utah could be more often but not terrible.

A stolen moment not working hard used to be a treat because I was getting paid the same as if I was busting my hump. But when I am objective focused I am stealing from myself.

Skills

Being a chaplain requires certain credentials, skills, training and experience. I possessed those things in the spring of 2003.

Consequently I took a job as a hospice chaplain. I was assigned a group of patients already on service to provide spiritual care. As more patients came on I provided care to them as well. In the course of my duties I was asked to conduct worship services, funerals, weddings, baptisms and various other tasks of the clergy. It was a job I had spent years developing the skills necessary to conduct.

I did not have to think about drumming up business, finding customers or selling people on my offering. When I took the job more than enough opportunity was given to me. As I continued to work and became known in the community the ancillary requests increased as well.

I stopped working as a chaplain In the fall of 2009. I longed for adventure and competition. Two things being a chaplain did not provide. I went into sales.

In sales the goal was specifically to drum up business, increase market share and find new customers. I am not sure how good I was at sales. However, I did possess a skill for getting sales jobs.

I was good at applying, getting interviews, being offered positions and moving up in salary and rank. From the time I left being a chaplain to the spring of 2017 I had tripled my salary and held executive leadership positions.

Now I scribble blog posts and advocate for objective focused growth. I was paid a salary as a chaplain and as a sales leader. I made money because my skills were seen as valuable. I was paid a regular salary in exchange for my loyalty to the company and cause.

How to I survive doing this?

I am an introverted person. My writing is personal and reflective. Does it appeal to anyone else? How do I consistently share it in a way that is mutually beneficial to the writer and reader?

Dominant energy

I was watching a show this morning with my daughter. The main character auditioned to sing the opening number for a television talent show. The whole episode was the adventures she had during the process.

But the character I noticed most was the impresario who was running the show.

He was surrounded by assistants that helped him pull the levers and move the production forward. He had the objective focused energy.

I probably wasn’t supposed to notice him but that is where my head is at now. I thought about the energy it took to decide he wanted to have a show, hire people to realize his vision and hold auditions for singers.

I am realizing more and more I have dueling energies. The one who wants to create worlds and interact with people. And one who wants to burrow down and passively observe the world or just partake in distractions.

For all of my life the observer has been my dominate energy. Even now on a Friday morning I feel the pull of skating at work and relishing the energy of a weekend close at hand.

As I wrote earlier I believe this has to be the way I connect and build a world. It is what I go to in my dominate energy and I do regularly and it is something I can share with others.