October 27, 2024, Sunday evening, 6:10pm, mountain standard time, mom’s condo in Evanston, Wyoming, USA. Drove to South Ogden again this morning to work out. When I got back I showered and got ready to go to Little America outside Green River, Wyoming for breakfast. We ate at the little diner off paper plates. It wasn’t the fanciest or best breakfast but a fun trip nonetheless. This afternoon I visited my uncle for a bit before going to Walmart with mom. We had pizza for dinner and watched some football. I am going to turn in early tonight then drive to Mesquite, Nevada tomorrow.

October 25,26, 2024, Friday, Saturday, evening, 5:32pm, mountain standard time, mom’s condo, Evanston, Wyoming, USA. Yesterday I went for the walk past Broken Circle. Afterwards, we headed to Salt Lake City and met up with my niece to drive to West Wendover, Nevada. My niece won over $500 on a slot machine so it was a good trip. When we got back to Salt Lake City we stopped by Piper Down for a couple Guinness’. This morning I drove to South Ogden to workout at Planet Fitness, then mom and I went over financial stuff to make sure everything was in order. This afternoon we drove through Ogden Canyon and grabbed a pizza from The Pie Pizza before heading home. On the way back we stopped by Holy Family Catholic Church to see the Stain Glass window from the Trappist Monastery. Now we are in Evanston eating pizza and going to watch the World Series, game 2, between the Dodgers and the Yankees.

October 24, 2024, Thursday night, 6:57pm, mountain standard time, mom’s house in Evanston, Wyoming, USA. This afternoon we drive up through the Uinta Mountains and had lunch in Park City at the Red Rock brewery. This evening we went to Murdocks. Mom bought cat food and I got a face mask for the walk tomorrow morning. Then we got some beer and other things at the Discount liquor store next door. Now we are hanging out, watching Ghost Ship on AMC.

October 22-23, Tuesday, Wednesday evening, 6:37pm, mountain standard time, mom’s house, Evanston, Wyoming, USA. Yesterday I went for the walk in Chandler then drove to the old office in Phoenix before heading to Wyoming. I drove through Flagstaff , got gas at the Circle K, drove to Page, got gas at the Maverik and finally stopped in Fillmore, Utah where I got gas at Bonus Fuel. I got to Evanston at 10pm, had a glass of wine with mom then went to sleep. This morning I walked for an hour past the house I grew up in, then had a call with a recruiter this morning. After that mom and I drove to Salt Lake City, ate lunch at Zupas, stopped by the State Liquor store, REI, Costco and Mister Car Wash. We came home through Centerville and drove by the old house. When we got back to Wyoming we grabbed Wendy’s for dinner. Mom went up to her room just now. I am drinking Guinness and watching The Office. It has been a good trip so far.

October 21, 2024, Monday night, 7:43pm, pacific standard time, Home2Suites, Gilbert,Arizona, USA. Room 207. Got up at 4am this morning to finish packing and tidy up the house. Then I headed to the gym. I got there at about 4:49am. The power was out and it didn’t look like it was opening soon so I drove to the off off El Toro in Lake Forest and worked out there. After that I walked the dog to the park and took my daughter to school. On my way out of town I stopped by the office park off Oak Canyon in Irvine, changed clothes then headed out. I stopped for groceries in Palm Desert but they didn’t have the chips I wanted. Finally, I got to Chandler at 4pm. There were no rooms available where I usually stay so I am on Gilbert tonight. It is nice. I showered then headed to The Thirsty Lion for a beer and a California roll. Now I am back in my room watching the second half of the Cardinals game. Tomorrow I will go for my Chandler walk then have a call with a recruiter at 9am. After that I will head to Nevada, up through Utah and get to Wyoming by evening.

October 20, 2024, Sunday night, 6:55pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Since I left Arizona in March of last year I have envisioned a specific scenario to soothe my Sunday Anxiety. In my fantasy I work as a PRN Hospice Chaplain in Phoenix. On Monday mornings I take my daughter to school then head straight to Arizona. I work Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and come back Friday afternoon. Occasionally, I would stay for a weekend like I did three years ago. I even mapped out subtle nuances to make the dream more vivid. I have my company car, my executive paycheck, and my old apartment in Chandler. Or better yet, a bigger, better house with multiple bedrooms for family and guests. That specific vision got me through many stressful weekend twilights. Tomorrow I will act out the beginning of that dream. I am going to finish packing in the morning, go workout, take my daughter to school then head straight east. I still have my company car and a paycheck for the time being. I am going enjoy the brief glimpse of that vision come true then head to Wyoming on Tuesday to visit my mom.

October 19, 2024, Saturday night, 6:29pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Aliso Viejo, California,USA. I am happy. My daughters mom is out of town so I am enjoying a day with my daughter and the dog. Monday i am going to take a long needed vacation and drive to the places I always want to but never have the time. I will drive to Arizona Monday then drive up through Vegas Tuesday. I should be in Wyoming late Tuesday or early Wednesday depending on time.

October 18, 2024, Friday evening, 5:54pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Go big or go home. I want a compensation number that will really get my attention. I am applying for President/C-suite jobs. Might as well swing away. The worst they can do is say no. It only takes one break to change a life’s trajectory. In my career I have more than sextupled my annual income, why can’t I do it again? Next week I have two interviews with recruiters. One is an informal introductory call. The other is to specially discuss a position in Arizona. I am going to travel next week to see my mom. My plan is to visit Arizona then cut through Nevada and Utah to get to Wyoming.

October 17, 2024, Thursday morning, 10:52am, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. The silence is getting to me. I went from a torrent of communication via text, calls, emails and messages to absolute nothing. My phone doesn’t ring, I haven’t heard from hiring managers and I don’t get any texts. I want to connect with the world in a productive and meaningful way. Getting a job seems the only viable way. I tried the entrepreneur route seven years ago and it was fruitless. I want to be connected again.

October 16, 2024, Wednesday night, 6:31pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Nothing gives me joy right now. No memories, activities or hope for the future. I am not depressed, more indifferent. I applied for a couple and cleaned up my resume. This afternoon I went to the dentist for a cleaning then went and saw my daughter and her mom. Stating tomorrow I will take my daughter to school more regularly. That is a silver lining to the no work situation.