Loose ends

5:58am in Dana point preparing stuff to pack truck and go back to Arizona. My mind is working on many levels. Thinking about the future. Work. Creating. All good. My brain is huge. My mind processes information at the highest level. I am a hard worker. I am successful. Success flows to me. I hell. I solve. I grow.

Long day

8:44pm pacific. Getting ready for bed. In laws came over today. Watched movies with my daughter this evening. A little nostalgia about leaving but more feeling good. I never really liked this physical space. I liked the location but not the space itself. I have wanted to leave before. Now the time has come. Tomorrow I will pack as much as I can into the truck then head back to Arizona.

In the dome

7:53am just got to Dana point. In baseball we said someone was in your done when they mentally dominated you. I notice that when I start to enjoy work, or think about possibilities of advancement, security or taking care of my family I would worry about failure. It would get in my dome. No more. I have used the Phoenix cleaver.

Hero

1:54am waking up, laying in bed, thinking about heading out on the road… I am the hero of my story. Everything I do is right. I win every situation.

I had an run in with a difficult employee at work. She gets under everyone’s skin. I handled the situation correctly. In the past I would excoriate myself for things I did wrong or could do better. No more. My story. My cool victory

Friday night

7:59pm Friday. Just before 5pm some supplies needed to be delivered far north. I volunteered to do it. The drive was not bad. And the time kept me from sitting in my apartment going stir crazy wanting to drink. Stopped on the way home and got a what a burger. Got home. Called my daughter and my. Watched some videos. Going to go read, go to bed and leave for California when I get up any time after 2am.

Friday

Friday morning 6:20am walk workout. I got in the recumbent bike again this morning. Only for a couple of minutes. That was my favorite workout/cardio. I had some nerve issue that started about four years ago so I had to dial it back. Maybe I can start up again. The screen in the bike shows sports center. I haven’t watched sports center in years. Reminds me of my brother.

Friday’s are easy. Happy the week is winding down. I am ready for my day. I am strong. Focused. Energetic. Decisive. Insightful. Caring. Compassionate

Evening

6:14pm finished work with supervisor. Good tired. Went to store. Bought coke Coke Zero, water, zone bars graham cracker and chocolate peanut butter. Clif bars whit macadamia. Changed. Belt broke when I took it off so have to buy a new tan belt.

Heated up left over pizza from lunch at work on Tuesday. Opened a beer.

Thought: omens and place are inseparable. You can’t have the place without the time. I can re live the moment. I love utah but I love utah and the circumstances of the moment. I love California but in the circumstances. Phoenix is the place and the moment now. I can’t go back and try to re live anything. It would feel the same anyway.

Note

It is interesting how it is easy to get away from the strong work energy. When I write those posts it clicks my brain into the correct frequency. I love having control. And being able to flip the switch to enjoy work. Be successful.