May 3,4,5, 2024, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, 9:41am, eastern standard time, hotel in Newark, New Jersey, USA. I worked from home Friday after going out and meeting a friend Thursday night. That was a good time. She is in a similar situation as me. She has two teenage boys involved in sports so life revolves around pick up and drop off. It was nice to talk with someone about something besides work. Saturday morning I got up at 3am and picked my daughter up at 4. We made it to LAX in time to catch a plane to Detroit and onto Newark. When we arrived my daughter wanted to see her friend right away. We hadn’t planned on getting together before the concert Tuesday but it seemed trivial to skip the chance. After all, meeting her friend was the point of the entire trip. We took a ride share to Morrisville, Pennsylvania and spent time with my daughters friend, her dad and his girlfriend. We didn’t get back to Newark until 12:30am. Now we are in the hotel resting. The plan for today is to visit New York City and see Times Square.

May 2, 2024, Thursday evening, 6:28pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. I have an adversarial relationship with work. It is an opponent trying to break me and I must survive the barrage of evil. Looking at my job that way gives me a cheap thrill but also leaves me frustrated and tired. I am Not sure I could change if I wanted to but boy, I feel ground down. I need a break from the tension.

May 1, 2024, Wednesday evening, 6:38, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. Drove from San Bernardino to Palm Desert this morning. The region president had a family issue arise so the San Diego site visit was canceled. I came home this afternoon and completed expanse reports and online training. Going to get ready for bed in a little bit then read. Two more days of work then off to New Jersey.

April 30, 2024, Tuesday evening, 5:07pm, pacific standard time, hotel room in San Bernardino, California, USA. Drove to San Bernardino this morning for a meeting with the region president. It went well. Tomorrow we meet in Palm Desert then finally one last visit in San Diego. I still feel a little under the weather. I think I am just stressed. Last week was exhausting and the trip to New Jersey with my daughter makes me anxious. We will have a good time but the logistics worry me.

April 29, 2024, Monday night, 8:02pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. Still having issues with my diaphragm. I can catch my breath better than yesterday but it still makes me feel tired. Alcohol, stress and lack of sleep exasperate it the most. I feel worthless at work. My ability to eat stress was my strength and my armor. I may not have been healthy but I never doubted my worth. Now I am like a pitcher who is injured and can’t perform. If it were sport I would go on injury reserve and heal. But this job offers no such respite. I need to deal with it and do the best I can.

April 28, 2024, Sunday afternoon, 1:04pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. Went to the angels game last night against the Minnesota Twins. It was a little chilly and the game was long. The angels lost by 11 runs. We were going to stay for fireworks but everyone was tired. I am still dragging today. Lounging in bed while doing laundry.

April 26-27, 2024, Saturday afternoon, 1:58pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California,USA. I have been having health issues the past couple weeks. The pain in my diaphragm area is getting more persistent. I feel if I remove myself from stress it would resolve but I don’t know how to do that without altering my entire way of life. I guess I have no choice but to work until something terrible happens. This is so unfortunate. I actually like my job but the grind is destroying me. I can’t keep up this pace.

April 25, 2024, Thursday night, 8:00pm, pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point,California, USA. Went to a volunteer breakfast in Bakersfield this morning and met a friend for drinks in Buena Park this afternoon. I got back to Dana Point just after 5:30pm. I watched some of the NFL draft and texted with friends. Now I am going to read and go to bed so I can take my daughter to school in the morning.

April 24, 2024, Wednesday evening, 6:29pm, pacific standard time, hotel room in Bakersfield, California, USA. Finished all my stressful meetings today at round noon. Then I went to the Bakersfield branch before returning back to the hotel. Had dinner then called my mom to catch up on the latest news from wyoming. Not much happening but it was good to hear her voice. I feel much more relaxed. It has been a long week already. I look forward to going to bed and having a good nights sleep.

April 23, 2024, Tuesday afternoon, 5:12pm, pacific standard time, hotel room in Bakersfield,California,USA. I told my business development counterpart I was feeling fried today. She said the same thing. Too many demands from too many places. It was a long day. Lots of meetings and reports. Tomorrow is filled with more meetings. After that it should slow down until The region president visits next week. I have some slides to prepare but I am going to hold off until morning. I don’t have the energy to grind any more today.